People who are struggling with depression will often talk about a complete lack of emotion and feeling. After a while they might even forget what it feels like to feel, leaving them unable to know how to respond to things that happen each day. People who are struggling with depression will talk about their life as if they are living in a kind of dream (or nightmare) state where everything feels somewhat meaningless and surreal. Depression can make you feel like an outsider looking in rather than an active participant.
“When you've been devoid of feeling for a while, things take on a different meaning – well a lack of meaning really. Until you've lost all feeling, you don't realise how important a part of the fabric of day to day life our thoughts, feelings and emotions are. I felt like I was kind of sleepwalking. Awake enough to interact with those around me, but never feeling fully present or real.”
“Every minute of every day was lived as if I was almost at the point of drowning. The point after you've stopped struggling and you're just lying there, watching the rest of the world as your lungs fill with water and the water envelopes you and you think 'I don't belong here anymore.'” “When people say 'how are you?' they never mean it. The thing is just to say 'I'm fine' and plaster on a fake smile. Hardly anyone sees past it.”